Out of the contemplation of the letter M, I made a wordpress a little while ago.
I haven’t really gotten going on there yet, but plan to. So check it out and if you’re on there too, let’s follow each other!
I really don’t want a job, but I know I’m supposed to be looking for one. I can feel it when people ask me what I’ve been up to, and my answer doesn’t involve making money.
But it’s not like I watch netflix all day. I do yoga, and jog in the mornings. I play music, and make collages. I explore new places, and swim in the ocean. I’ve learned that change starts by putting one foot in front of the other, instead of waiting for something to come to you. I think, and laugh, and feel, and write it down.
It’s incredible to me that society is telling me I’m failing at life when I finally feel like I’m actually living it. I feel healthier because I want to, and I’m doing what it takes to get there.
I’m not afraid to be alone and give myself the time, and spend the energy, it takes to get to the core of the things I struggle with. That’s how you figure out what to change about what you’re doing. Being honest with yourself is the first step.
At this point it would be disrespectful to my happiness to spend my time being a robot behind a cashier perpetuating a capitalistic and corporate system that I disagree with. The money isn’t worth dehumanizing yourself, and the way you see and treat others.
I don’t want to do that type of job again. I’d rather work on a creative project. Something that makes a difference. Something that feels good. Something I want to do. I want to be inspired, as well as inspire others.
When you ask yourself what you’re actually doing in this life, and if you’re spending it the way you want- wouldn’t you prefer to like the answer?
- (Not putting down those that DO watch netflix all day. I like me some netflix too!) -